Thursday, January 7, 2010
“The LORD said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
But Moses said, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it." Then the LORD's anger burned against Moses and he said, "What about your brother, Aaron the Levite?"
Lately I’ve been camping out in the book of Exodus. It’s amazing how reading the bible in different seasons of life brings out a whole new meaning and perspective to even the most familiar passages.
This was one of those new seasons for me. I’m reading the story of Moses. I’ve probably read it over a dozen times, and watched the Charleston Heston version on TV over 25 times. But this time I noticed something that I have never noticed before: Moses got robbed.
I don’t mean tangibly, in a monetary way. I mean spiritually. You see, God himself appeared to Moses through a burning bush. God himself. I can’t say I have that kind of experience on a daily basis.
But as though that were not enough, God offered Moses something. He offered him Himself. “I will help you speak…I will teach you what to say…”. Funny thing is, for Moses- that wasn’t enough.
He wanted the tangible. He wanted help he could see, and feel, and touch. He wanted assurance in human things, in familiar things, in physical things. And at the end of the exchange, Moses exchanged the direct help of God himself…for the help of his brother Aaron.
The funny thing is, I never really saw this passage that way before. It completely boggles my mind. I’m thinking, “Seriously, Moses? Seriously? You would rather have the help of your random brother than the help of God himself?” It made no sense to me in the moment. How foolish. How weak. How lacking in faith.
But, like usual as I’m reading God’s word…the tables are turned. “What about you, Deb? I offer you myself every day, and many days that is not enough.”
And God was right.
There are so many days and seasons in my life where I am trying to believe, longing for faith, longing for more of God…and wanting some extra assurance on the side.
That extra financial boost, that relationship, that apology from a friend, that test grade, that approval. There are so many times that I want the tangible more than I want the spiritual. And just like Moses, that exchange is always a poor and pitiful choice.
You see, when we are relying on the tangible, we are missing so much of what God wants to do with us. We are missing intimacy with Him in a powerful way. An intimacy that can only come with Him guiding, Him leading, Him whispering in our ear. Him speaking to us, and Him teaching us.
But instead, we opt for what we can see, what we can feel, what we can touch. We opt for the familiar. And in the end, we, like Moses, get robbed. We get robbed of knowing God in a deep and powerful way. We get robbed of the opportunities to grow in our faith, in our trust, and in our reliance on Him and Him alone.
God didn’t argue with Moses. He got angry at his lack of faith. He was probably hurt by it. But he didn’t argue. Instead, he gave him the tangible instead. He allowed Moses to choose whether he would have more of God, or more of what was comfortable.
What about you? What assurances are you holding on to that are taking the place of God? What tangible things are you leaning on when you should be leaning on Him?
May we have faith to let go of the tangible, and exchange them for more of the supernatural. For more of Him.
Lessons Learned by Debra Fileta at 12:11 PM