Transference:

Transference.  At times, it can be a therapist's greatest enemy. 

Wikipedia lists the definition of transference:  the unconscious redirection of feelings for one person to another.

Redirecting feelings for one person, to another...usually, the feelings are negative.  And usually, those they are transferred upon have not an ounce of responsibility for the feelings.   Transference happens all around us without our even realizing it sometimes.  In fact, I believe it even influences our relationship with God.

I was thinking a little about that today.  Some thoughts on that:

I AM
Exodus 3:14
I Am who I Am.

We’re always trying to figure out God.  Always trying to wrap our boundaries around his boundlessness, to tack our names on his namelessness.  Always trying to fit Him into our preconceived notions and small ideas.  Putting him into our little boxes.  I suppose that makes us feel safe, keeps us in control.

But in order for God to be God- He has to shatter our tiny molds.  And that is exactly what He does when we allow Him to.  That’s the beauty of our Lord.  He has no need for pushing and shoving His way into our lives.  He meets us where we’re at.  Moses came to Him with his own reservations, allowing his own inadequacies to taint his perspective of God.  Concerned with the recent mistakes that he had made, and fearful of the rejection he might receive when he approached his people, he had allowed his own short comings to influence his view of God.

I’m beginning to realize our human tendency to follow in that pattern.  Painting God with the colors of our own fear, shame, doubt, insecurity, and unforgiveness.  Allowing the mistakes that we have made or the pains that others have caused us to influence our perspective of who He is.  Taking the faces of those around us- the good, the bad, and the ugly- and transplanting those faces onto Him.  Placing Him in our tiny worlds.

I am thankful that our God does not take our names, though we push them on Him.  I am thankful that He does not allow us to determine who He is.  He is who He is.  Nothing short of that will do.  He is the embodiment of all that is good and the sustenance for all that we need.  The answer was simple: I am who I am.

Even with such an encompassing answer, it’s hard to stop trying to make sense of Him.  It’s hard to really believe that He is the I AM.  I AM the answer to all your problems, the comfort through all your fears, the joy for all your sorrows, the healer of all your injustices.  I AM.  How drastically our worlds would change if we truly believed this.  How infinitely large our tiny worlds would become.  

Today, take some time to consider the perspective you’ve developed.  Take some time to assess the human inadequacies that you may have transferred onto your God.  Take some time to obliterate the deficient definitions you have so hastily cast upon Him, asking Him to reveal His true name to you.

Lord, we have placed you in the prison of our feeble prototypes.   Forgive us that we have not understood your greatness.  Forgive us that we have not lived as though you were truly the I AM.  Regain your rightful place in our lives.  Reveal to us the boundlessness of your name.